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Grotesque Moi! #27: It’s Been A While

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I’ll start with where I’m at now creatively and how I got here.

It’s been a roller coaster from COVID lockdown forward. I left a non art job of 15 years due to poor management decisions on their part. Started a new management position with a new to me company. Two months later COVID hit. After work opened back up the company decided to down size and I was with the newest employees so we were let go.

Some health issues that I’ve been dealing with for a while returned or developed.

I had a serious injury 45 years ago. Among other things, unknowingly, my hips wound up being affected. Around 25 years ago I was at the point of needing both hips replaced or getting a wheel chair. My orthopedic surgeon suggested that I try a device that came available with my insurance. I used it and got back my ability to walk without any problems. 14 years later I started having problems again. The original injury was still healed but arthritis had set in and was causing me problems with walking again. It has been progressing since then to the point that just going grocery shopping takes me forever. I’m exhausted by the time I get home and walking is affected for days. It’s progressively taking more days, the pain doesn’t fully go away anymore and I don’t really bounce back like before.

Around 10 years ago I believe I had a minor stroke. It was during a stressful situation I was having with my parents. I read a message from my wife about a meeting with my dad and stepmom and it didn’t sit well with me. One of my coworkers noticed that I was struggling with my words and had slurred speech. She said that my head and ears were bright red and that the left side of my face was slumping. Ever since this I’ve had problems that slowly develop with my short and long term memory. It’s so frustrating trying to keep up with things that I’m doing from minute to minute.

Art wise….

I lost my main computer for illustrating. I still have my IPad but I did final editing and adjustments on that desktop. I was able to wake Artsy up one more time and double backed it up so I would have all that work. The laptop I have doesn’t have the drawing program or the graphics capabilities. It’s also Windows 7 so internet is on again off again continuously.

Traditional art is a bit harder than it used to be. I don’t have the tools I used to have when I was doing it more full time.

It’s been hard staying motivated but I know this story has to be told. It feels like multiple books already.

Where I’m at now.

I have continued with the journal, making sketch notes of the locations that the creatures I’ve been creating live in.

I’ve also been working on writing the story of that world. I’m trying a different style of writing and storytelling. It’s from a current perspective for the characters. It’s also less of a narrative format. I want the reader to feel as if they are there experiencing things with the characters.

I’ve given strong consideration of a written and illustrated companion guide with reference details explaining things in the main story. These guides will be specific to each book they reference.

I’m still open for commissions to illustrate your creature portraits from the Grotesque Moi collection. Details are available in my shop under the tier banners. http://www.xtillos.com/shop

I hope you all are well! I’ll update when I’ve gotten a little further along. Thank you for your support!

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Grotesque Moi! #25 – Planning for 2021

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I hope everyone has had a great holiday and a Happy New Year celebration! I’m really hoping that everyone has a successful year in whatever you do!

Plans for Grotesque Moi! are as follows:

  • Illustrations – The goal is to produce 6 to 12 new portraits this year. some may be in the form of scene illustrations combining multiple creatures.
  • Illustration Canvas Print Frames – I plan to continue creating customized frames for each of my illustrations.
  • Red Bubble Catch Up – Setting a deadline for updating each newly finished and released portrait or illustration.
  • Expansion – Develop illustrations on a splinter line that are quicker to create and potentially making a separate set of pricing tiers that fits with these quicker illustrations.
  • Plan for phase II and III of Grotesque Moi! – More on these after the above has been integrated.
  • Grotesque Moi!’s Patreon Page – Add more sketches and line drawings to Grortesque Moi!’s Patreon page..

Plans for Terrene and Ba’anta

Now that Terrene and Ba’anta have been hinted at in the lore of the Grotesque Moi! creatures, it’s time to start the story debuting this world on Patreon!

  • It’s time to share the first posted sketches that was in my early blog posts here to Patreon.
  • All future sketches will debut on Patreon first.
  • Publish the updated labeled geographical map of Ba’anta on Patreon.
  • Create a large (maybe 48”x36”) illustration of the lands of Terrene.

There’s a lot of things planned out here! I will have to create a calendar to keep things on track!

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Grotesque Moi!: Other Projects 1

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I’ve kept this quiet for as long as I can! I’ve begun working on some side projects for Grotesque Moi!. As I get image(s) and info for the new stuff I’m creating. I will post updates as I have something worth posting.

This is a rough sketch for a possible comic I’ll be creating. It will be part of one f the character’s back story.

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New Things for the New Year: Part 3

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Posting here first before it goes up on other social media! This is a new video ad that I made for my work for Grotesque Moi!. Everything (including the music) was created by me! If you like my work and want to own a part of it, there are different levels of prints and commissions available here on my website shop. Patreon is another option where you can support at any tier.

As a reminder, please support your favorite artist. It’s easy to assume that they’re ok especially if they’re producing work. Many are struggling because they are not able to make their normal income from conventions and art markets because of the world situation with COVID19. Financial support is best of course but you can help in other ways. Likes, comments and sharing helps bring their work to so many others.

Thank you for being there to help us through a difficult time!

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Grotesque Moi!: Update #23 Akrep

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This is Akrep the Scorpion Warrior. A digital illustration completed March 2020. Created with Procreate, Manga Studio5, Wacom Intuous and Ipad Pro!
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This has been a long time in the making! May I finally Introduce to you Akrep the The Scorpion Warrior! Originally scheduled to be completed in October last year, there have been many trials to bring her forth. True to her nature, every step of the way has been a battle! Every bit of it has been well worth it. She is tough, powerful and deadly! I’m very happy to give you this chance to see her!

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Grotesque Moi! Update #21

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I’ve been working on the next creature illustration for Grotesque Moi!. As it usually happens, I’ve come to a point where I have to work out a design change.

My original sketch had the stinger and claws turned the wrong way.
First I inverted the stinger then adjusted the shapes.

Next are the claws. This is where I’m still playing with the design.
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Grotesque Moi! Update #20 Id

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I’m happy to finally present to you the inspiration that started this project. I present to you Id! The physical embodiment of the Freudian model of id, ego and super-ego. There is much to share about him that I will be posting in my Patreon. I can say that he has been around since before I understood who or what he is. It is truly thanks to Id that I’m here to share all of these things with you, today! Without further ado I give you Id!

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Grotesque Moi! #16 Project Update Sal-Broga, Anuran

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Meet Sal-Broga! He is an acolyte of the Anuran race. they are a mix of green frog amphibians and humanoids. They live in close communities and have a strong familial bond in their culture. Anurans value societal structures, knowledge and nature. To show the importance of family and nature they use the symbol of the tadpole in their important buildings and equipment. Its to remind them of their simple start in life.

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Grotesque Moi! #14 Project Update “Tamaska-Ahas, Lupinenaga”

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I’m happy to introduce everyone to the latest creature for Grotesque Moi! This is Tamaska-Ahas. He is a Lupinenaga prince. I have been excited to create him for awhile. He was one of a group of sketches i did when I first came up with the idea of of what would become Grotesque Moi! To learn more about any of the creatures of Grotesque Moi! you are invited to become a patron at https://www.patreon.com/xtillos

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Grotesque Moi!

When I started seriously drawing, I would find myself drawing creatures. My mom would ask jokingly, “Why are you drawing them uglies?”. I would tell her because it’s what’s in my head and they’re not really ugly. It is just their appearance. Creating creatures has been a part of my art since the beginning. Dragons have always been my favorite but I like to create lots of other mythical creatures, too.

Frequently I’m asked if I can do portrait work. Usually this is while I’m showing examples of my creatures. I decided, “Why not do something that is mutually beneficial? “. Combining the portraits with my creatures! We can each have a part in creating a unique portrait! Grotesque Moi! was born (or more accurately, hatched)!

Grotesque is a French name for the statuary adorning the tops of Gothic architecture. Grotesque is also a description for that which is not what is sometimes considered as normal. The things that found to be odd, disturbing, abhorrent or unnatural. All are somewhat a description of what Grotesque Moi! is about. Taking what is natural and hybridizing it into a fantastically new beautiful creation! Beauty is truly in the eye of the beholder.

Details:


This is an Illustration project with you the fan and collector in mind. Inside you will find yourself transformed into your favorite fantasy creature! As your guide and illustrator, I will help you find the best hybridized image of yourself as your fantasy creature. When completed you will receive your illustration digitally printed on a 16″ x 20″ canvas ready for you to frame. Each completed purchase of a tier will set aside a block of my time to create your fantasy creature illustration. Below is a breakdown of each tier. There are five levels to choose from. Four are illustration levels and the fifth is for prints when they become available. Please look for details of these tiers represented by the icons below in my store for more information about how to purchase.